I know. Where in the world have I been? Helping to take care of my father, for one, as I mentioned in a previous post. He is doing a little better. He is at home but still very weak. I was with him one day last week so my mother could get some things done. Since then I have decided I need take one day each week to spend with him. Mom may be home but it will hopefully take a little stress off of her and let her get some things done around the house. Plus, I know my dad likes his little girl around.
And, for those of you with mental illness, you know that sometimes things just do not work right. Well, things have not been working right. I have been having family difficulties and the like that have drained me to the bone. Best thing to do in that situation? Back off. Get away. And when appropriate, remember it us not really my problem. Some things hurt and that is hard for those of us who are hurt easily and do not take rejection well, but after a while, you just have to look out for yourself and not feel one bit of guilt about it. Of course that us a little harder if the situation is with a person you live with but my biggest beef has not been with him…well, at least after that first night when I clearly made my needs heard. Relationships. Can’t live with ‘em; can’t live without ‘em.
So, onward and upward…
Lions and demons and bears, oh no!
What? That is not right. Well, it is my little play on words. My post today is longer than usual so I hope you bear with me. It is on a subject not often talked about…or even thought about. But I think it is something we all need to be aware of.
Not everyone believes in demons; nor do they believe in the devil, even though they profess their faith in God. What I have always heard, and believe, is that you cannot believe in God without believing in Satan. Why? One of those reasons is history. Do you know the history of Satan? Today is a history lesson brought to you by www.sharefaith.com written by Amy Miller.
Have you ever read such a history lesson? Did you know there was so much to the story of Lucifer, the “fallen angel”? Until the day of his falling, Lucifer seemed to be God’s right-hand man. What a little power can do to some people. A thought to remember.
Next question: Do you believe in demons? There are many definitions for the word demon but I am going on my own personal experience here and not bog you down with Latin phrases and evil names. In my estimation, demons are the workers of the devil, Satan. These are also fallen angels who chose to follow him. The thing about Satan is the other name for him: The Liar of liars. His demons reinforce those lies.
What kind of lies am I talking about here? Well, let us take this from the standpoint of this website. This website is dedicated to those people who have been abused and struggle with the many types of mental illness. I will focus on the abused because that is where a lot of problems start.
When I was sexually and emotionally abused, in the first few months I was treated like a queen. I was made to feel almost supremely special. It reeled me into this guy hook, line and sinker. That is when the abuse started. Slowly at first, not to scare me, but gradually taking more and more of me. The queen-like image and the compliments were gone. I was told how stupid I was, how I was not pretty, that no one could ever love me. And what did I do? I believed it. Even after he was gone, I believed it for years and years.
Others grow up with confidence in their abilities and themselves. How could I have held on to those negative beliefs for all these years? The Liar of liars. He took what this man started and he cemented it into my mind. He used his demons to instill in me anger and hostility that was not naturally there. I believe he used demons to remind me every chance they got how worthless I was and would never amount to anything. He still works it.
Of course, a person of science could and would possibly tell you it was all a result of my mental illness. And yes, my mental illness has played a part in my behavior over the years. I don’t doubt that. But that does not mean I have not been subject to the influences of Satan.
Take for instance this website. Since I started to work on this ministry and work on this website, I have felt and onslaught of evil spirits that I have never felt before in my life. I am sharing my story of how God has worked in my life and Satan does not like it. He is working hard to stop it. I believe he has even played a role in my recent absence of contributing and sharing here. Though there have been other obligations I needed to attend to, I still could have found the time to share my message to whoever may read it.
This may sound a little over-the-top for many of you. It has to me too. But remember that Satan and his demons do not have to have the run of our lives if we do not let them. We can go about our lives and not give in to temptation of certain things that may come up and we do not even realize what we are doing. We can do the right thing by ourselves or someone else and we are going against Satan’s plan and we do not even realize it.
Angels and demons fight over us all of the time. Of course we do not see it. I believe that angels and demons live among us on a different dimension. They make their presence known in a variety of ways. Just as I did some of my research on demons, I felt a presence and it caused me to stop and pray to God. Pray to send his angels to my room, to my house, to protect me so that I be not sucked in by the powers of the liar. I pray my prayers out loud because Satan is not omniscient. He cannot read what is in our minds like God can so we must speak aloud in the name of Jesus Christ. My room is peaceful now and I have continued my writing unscathed.
The best recommendation I can give you regarding angels and demons is not a history book. It is a novel written by Frank Peretti, titled This Present Darkness. First published in 1986, it gives you a first-hand look at the power of angels and demons in the lives of a town called Ashton. You will be brought into a world you have likely never experienced before. Here is one source for you: http://www.amazon.com/This-Present-Darkness-Frank-Peretti/dp/0842361715
I have had my own personal experience with demons and Satan himself but I will eventually get to that in my testimony. For now, I strongly recommend reading Frank Peretti’s book. He is one of the best authors I have ever read.